Down memory lane

Today's day was full of nostalgia..
Passed peddar road and recalled all the times the D'Souza clan, walked towards Marble Arch.
The trip to Lamington Road, reminded me of Dipti and our trips to the Comet's office. And most of all took me back to the summer we went to Shillong and Gulbarga.
Walking towards Crystal, which is a quaint little place opposite Girgaum Chowpatty, I thought about how Chitra and me explored that part of town.
Then came Nair and it took me back to the experiences shared collectively with my friends in the university. And the lovely experience shared only by Wil and me. It was the period of time, that me feel on the top of the world and a start of many firsts - love, heart break, understanding, happiness and vacuums that are created when love no longer exists.
Passing by Navjeevan co-op society, took me back to my research days. I have been part of interesting researches, but sadly, the work took so much out of us, that we couldn't always enjoy it.

Passing through all these places, took me to spaces in my past that meant so much to me. Made so much difference to my life and somehow has contributed to who I am today.
Life has a way of picking you up, every time you are down.
Hope and dreams are for the future, but look back sometimes to all those hopes and dreams, which are now part of our past. I did that today. It indeed felt great!

Hope

Was talking about hope to piglet today and just thought of you.

You gave me hope, where I thought there was none. From that evening we went out, and at the end of which, I confessed how I felt about you, to the last time I spoke to you, the only thing you gave me is something to look forward to.
Well, you didn't do that only for me. As I discovered during a conversation with AP, you not only gave her something to look forward to, you gave SN also the same.

You are a wonderful man. Hope you have a wonderful and happy life ahead of you. Happy married life, my best friend.

Butterfly kisses

In the middle of all the fun and merry making, comes talks about the day you left our side without saying a word.
The day my world changed forever.
All I can feel right now, is you by my side.
I will miss dancing with you, on my wedding day. 

Butterfly kisses, I will miss you for ever and ever and ever...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SwlAdEnT-do 

Bucket list

Well, I just realised that I have been allowing my life to revolve around something that doesn't exist. 
My life has been revolving around G's wedding, how I think I feel about Piglet and hoping that Wil's life sorts itself out.
What about my life? 
So I thought this is was the best time to actually put down a bucket list for myself.
I am going to be turning 28, in the next 20 days, so it is best time to do this.

Here goes nothing... :)

So these are the things I need to do before I turn 30!

1. Start travelling more often - start small and then be consistent and then go big baby...
2. Visit Bhutan, Leh and Ladakh - at least Bhutan, if not Leh and Ladakh
3. Visit a foreign country - USA, I will surely visit sin city and try my luck at gambling at least once - who knows, I may hit the jack pot!
4. Need to learn how to Swim and cycle
5. Run a marathon - even though it is for Khushi or the one in Aarey Milk colony
6. Start the ground work for my NGO - feeling proud just putting it down, will be elated if I accomplish this dream :)
7. Start exploring my creative potential - I have already started doing it, but it needs to be more consistent.
8. Step foot in - Pondi, Andaman and Nicobar islands, Lakshadweep islands, Kanyakumari, Deer Park, See the Himalayas (try and trek if possible), Rishikesh, Sikkim, Coorg during the rains, Kashmir, Mandu, back waters in Mangalore and Kerala 
9. Meet the Dalai Lama :)
10. Try meeting Ruskin Bond. So most probably check if Mr. Bond is going to be in Mussoorie the next time you go there :P
11. Try and read more
12. Listen and discover more music
13. Write more often, not only when you are sad and need an outlet!
14. Exercise more often - run, baby run :)

Keep smiling Sue, things will turn out for the best :)

Letting go..

U just spoilt everyone else for me,
I will never forgive you for that.

U made me so strong that, I have forced myself to accept that you are not mine.

I let go of everyone, just because they can't be you.

Quote

I read these lines, and recalled the story of Alexander and the monk. Recalled sitting on the grass at India Gate and speaking of exactly what this quote talks about.

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come."
- Nicholas Sparks

Letting go, I tell you, is the worse thing to do. Getting out of your comfort zone, however much it hurts you, the hurt is better than nothingness. Time to experience the nothingness, time to embrace the unknown. Don't thread this path again, is all I would like to tell my self.

Hide..

How many times shall I wash my face, to hide these drops of tears that fall on my cheek?
It may camouflage the tears but can't hide the sadness in my eyes.
I want it to rain, to pour, I want to lift my face to the rain and let it engulf me.
I want to cry in the rain, so that no one knows but me, where the rain drops end and my tears begin.
I can't fake a smile or even a smirk. My eyes don't smile tonight.
I will just bury my face in my pillow and let my eyes let out the hurt.
I will not fake it tonight, but let my heart feel the pain its feeling, without judging it.
Cry, my heart, cry! cry till you have no tears left to shed.