Tuesday, July 31, 2012

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It is so beautiful to be surrounded by silence.
It speaks to you in so many different ways - it helps you imagine, it shapes you, it brings out what is in your deepest recesses and wants you to take charge.

Today when I am in the midst of silence, my own being challenges me, it makes me want to know myself better, be sure of what I am and why I do things.
I want to love myself and very funnily finding it the hardest to do, but eventually getting there. I am tearing myself between what I want and what I need to do, and its hard to accept reality!
I like being loved and thought of as beloved but at the same time, can not accept that its just a temporary phase. I want to give it a definition, even though every atom in my body tells me to go the other way, how do I tell you to stand up for me! to stand with me! and let us be rebels and renounce the world... I want to be with you, you are made for me, and I for you.
Its perfect the way we are to each other, there is no attachment, no necessity, no compulsion, but choice, and the willingness to be there, to see each other, to be with each other.
It is too strong to be ignored for me, do you understand? do you hear me in my silences? do you want it to be the way I picture it?
Please see it the way I do, picture it the way I do, understand what I feel and do not stop the emotions flowing, do not make your heart a stone but just love me like the way you do.

It is time to accept reality, live a lie till the reality can not be ignored. I know it will make me sad, but also know its temporary and will not last forever.
Love you true, love you always.

2 comments:

Wd said...

Am I the only one reading this? :p

Sue D'Souza said...

I hope not Fi... :)