Again, I find it difficult to pen down my thoughts... this is my first attempt to write down what I am feeling!
It has been a difficult start to the year... actually fun interspersed with sadness and right now sadness is winning!
I am trying my hardest, to get over it... to move on... forget it... look at the sliver lining... but its difficult to do all of the above...
Right now the only voice in my head is telling me to smile, to go out of my way to be happy and to embrace and cherish the people who actually reciprocate what I feel for them... this actually feels so funny even to write; it just makes me realise that every dream I had in the last 4 odd years, have just vanished... and now its up to me, to write and weave new dreams!
So even though I do not want to weave new dreams, because I do not want them to perish without seeing the light of day, I have to do so!! I have to make my self get out of the melodramatic scene that has been created in my life right now and rise to the occasion... I need to show myself that I am the independent, fun loving, mature, dynamic; person that I always knew I was...
This new year gives me the opportunity to rediscover who actually I am... and rightly so, I shall do that!!!
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