clear atlast

I am happy truly happy today... I feel my life is sorting itself out...

This is not the right forum to say what exactly has sorted my life- in due time I will end up blogging about how happy it has made me....

but the way I plan it now it looks like 15th April is freedom day..... yeah, I can atlast give a date... :)

The best part is I don't feel useless and confused anymore...

Love the feeling right now.

welcome - obey traffic rules

I recently went to Kanpur for a trip... it was a good city like any other...

but the thing that took my breath away was the road...

the rash driving, the stubborn cows on the road and the numerous cycle rickshaws.

I have seen my share of cows on the road in Mumbai but the difference in the cows in Kanpur are that they make the traffic rules - they rush towards the cars while the Mumbai cows run the other way...

The best part about the trip was seeing the Ganga... it was beautiful...

The feeling of being on the GT road was also very different - it was like being a part of something which is so much more that you.

Both the Ganges and the GT road - signified longevity and something which is long and that I am bearing witness to something so minisclue compared to what it actually is...

Felt good.

Always remember if your are in Kanpur - dare not to J walk.

Will I ever learn...

Life is always better when you are on the other side.... I agree....

being on this side of the fence - I being me, am lost.... in my great need to be sweet and understanding I don't always say what I want to do.... and who suffers??? - the answer is so easy - ME....

I am still clueless and don't know how to say what I really want to say - "no don't go - you were supposed to be with me... I wore something special only for you" - but what do I end up saying - "no, no go, its ok with me.... no yaar I understand"....

I know you don't understand where I am coming from - some of you all will....

But for all those who know me understand because unlike others they have reference to context...

Anyways - I'll end up crying a little, a little frustrated and will end up having a very unpleasant conversation with the one I was referring too...

Life will go on... but I - will never learn to say what I feel...