Butterfly kisses

In the middle of all the fun and merry making, comes talks about the day you left our side without saying a word.
The day my world changed forever.
All I can feel right now, is you by my side.
I will miss dancing with you, on my wedding day. 

Butterfly kisses, I will miss you for ever and ever and ever...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SwlAdEnT-do 

Bucket list

Well, I just realised that I have been allowing my life to revolve around something that doesn't exist. 
My life has been revolving around G's wedding, how I think I feel about Piglet and hoping that Wil's life sorts itself out.
What about my life? 
So I thought this is was the best time to actually put down a bucket list for myself.
I am going to be turning 28, in the next 20 days, so it is best time to do this.

Here goes nothing... :)

So these are the things I need to do before I turn 30!

1. Start travelling more often - start small and then be consistent and then go big baby...
2. Visit Bhutan, Leh and Ladakh - at least Bhutan, if not Leh and Ladakh
3. Visit a foreign country - USA, I will surely visit sin city and try my luck at gambling at least once - who knows, I may hit the jack pot!
4. Need to learn how to Swim and cycle
5. Run a marathon - even though it is for Khushi or the one in Aarey Milk colony
6. Start the ground work for my NGO - feeling proud just putting it down, will be elated if I accomplish this dream :)
7. Start exploring my creative potential - I have already started doing it, but it needs to be more consistent.
8. Step foot in - Pondi, Andaman and Nicobar islands, Lakshadweep islands, Kanyakumari, Deer Park, See the Himalayas (try and trek if possible), Rishikesh, Sikkim, Coorg during the rains, Kashmir, Mandu, back waters in Mangalore and Kerala 
9. Meet the Dalai Lama :)
10. Try meeting Ruskin Bond. So most probably check if Mr. Bond is going to be in Mussoorie the next time you go there :P
11. Try and read more
12. Listen and discover more music
13. Write more often, not only when you are sad and need an outlet!
14. Exercise more often - run, baby run :)

Keep smiling Sue, things will turn out for the best :)

Letting go..

U just spoilt everyone else for me,
I will never forgive you for that.

U made me so strong that, I have forced myself to accept that you are not mine.

I let go of everyone, just because they can't be you.

Quote

I read these lines, and recalled the story of Alexander and the monk. Recalled sitting on the grass at India Gate and speaking of exactly what this quote talks about.

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come."
- Nicholas Sparks

Letting go, I tell you, is the worse thing to do. Getting out of your comfort zone, however much it hurts you, the hurt is better than nothingness. Time to experience the nothingness, time to embrace the unknown. Don't thread this path again, is all I would like to tell my self.

Hide..

How many times shall I wash my face, to hide these drops of tears that fall on my cheek?
It may camouflage the tears but can't hide the sadness in my eyes.
I want it to rain, to pour, I want to lift my face to the rain and let it engulf me.
I want to cry in the rain, so that no one knows but me, where the rain drops end and my tears begin.
I can't fake a smile or even a smirk. My eyes don't smile tonight.
I will just bury my face in my pillow and let my eyes let out the hurt.
I will not fake it tonight, but let my heart feel the pain its feeling, without judging it.
Cry, my heart, cry! cry till you have no tears left to shed.

Pure unadulterated joy :)

I want to put on record that today the 30th of April, has been one of the most wonderful days of my life.

2 of my students got through the internship they wanted. 1 realised that education is important.
We got our computers, so we can start computer classes soon.
I found 2 mentors for my kids. Their enthusiasm and the fact that they said 'yes' and were happy, made me happier.
I spoke about my experience at the observation home with my senior and received a positive response.
The reasons why I love my job were reinforced.
I am clearer about what I want to do with my life.
I realised there are more people who look out for my welfare, than those who want me to fail.
I realised it doesn't take too much for me to be purely happy.
I made someone's day.
I am finding my feet in my new job - shows that I am discovering that this is my passion.
I have started prioritising - something I have had lots of issues with.

I am happy :)
This my friends, is what I call 'pure unadulterated joy!'

Gratitude

Thank you for loving me. I am unable to put down in words the way it makes me feel.
You taught me that, there can be relationships which are only based in love, trust and understanding and that fights are not part of the equation.
You have made me secure for evermore, just by loving me.