It is time to fly... I have had one of the best experiences in my life in the past few weeks... I have broaden my horizons... been encouraged to see things differently and felt loved, immensely...
Staying away from my comfort zone for 2 weeks, was a challenge, I took up with an agenda... an agenda, where I wanted to prove to myself that I can do it - I can live without my mom, my friends who are just a knock or phone call away, my lovely baby, my bed and my knicknacks which provide me company whenever I feel lonely and down...
But I did it... and now its time to fly...
It is time to fly back home, meet everyone and tell them I missed them and happy that I am back... and I know they missed me too... messages, the calls and and the come back soons!!! said it all...
The time here in this strange city seemed to pass so slowly, but I experience the richness of it... I experienced people like I never did before... it does not change the way I feel about the city but it still gives it a benefit of doubt...
It is time to fly... its time to take what I got from here and roam the ends of the earth... I realised in these 10 days, that it is time for me to move out of what I feel most comfortable in and move away from everything I knew was the way it should be... it is time to find myself, it is time to spread my wings, to meet and experience people and to reach the potentialities that only I know exists...
It is time to fly... its time to come out of myself... stop looking at what the future holds for me, but live in the moment... to understand how precious I am... how much love I can give and still have loads left inside of me... to understand how beautifully God has created me and actually feel it and just live the life he has given me, without asking, why this Lord, why not that?
It is not easy to give up control, but as I learnt, sometimes things are meant to happen... we just meet people who affect us and we affect them in numerous and unseeming ways and when that actually turns out to be the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to you, you will never realise until the time has passed and you look at it from an outsider's perspective...
It is time to fly... it is time to test my limitations... it is time to take my spiritual journey and not get caught up in the routine of life... the challenge that I face today is to either give up control and just live life for others, or take a stand and live it on my terms... which I know is not possible.. therefore its time to find a mid way and not a compromise, it is time to take the most important decisions in my life for myself and not for the people I value.. because it I don't want to rationalise those decisions and say, it was for them... even though I will not blame them... because in my deepest recesses of my heart, I will always regret that I had to let go of people who actually brought the most happiness in my life...
Most importantly its time to fly home, to give a hug to my mom, be a part of my best friend's wedding, to go back to the routine of work and extra work!, and have fun being around people that I cherish, but always loving more than that what I am capable of...
The journey so far has been good, bad, ugly, happy, sad and full of bumping in and out of people... Looking forwards to more bumps... but as someone special once told me... the best and the most happiest moments in my life are yet to come...
And indeed, love is all around us... we just need to open our eyes...
