My time to pass the into the unknown!!!

Its time... its time to know choose a new path... the time to choose a new life... the time to change my environment... the time to change my route which I took for more than 2 years...

I will be changing not only my job but also leaving behind people, relationships, smiles I have shared, jokes we have created... the knowledge of what every twitch means, what every bad day means... the familiar faces, the smiles that have touched my hearts... the comments I made, the comments made on me...

The people, the place I sat on, the pens we lost... the people we blamed... the mails I sent out and the people who got angry on me, and the tickles that made someone almost fall off their seats... the seat for which I fought with people, the seat which I fell off... the people who greeted me every morning... got me coffee when I was not allowed to have any...

The fights on the speed of the fan... the saree days... the tears... the hugs... the friends... the beatings... the smiles and most of all you...

Just wanted to tell you, if circumstances were different perhaps we would not be friends; but the fact that we are friends is the greatest thing I will cherish...

Sweet dreams sweetheart... and all the other sweet people I will leave behind - keep in touch...

Late nights in office...

Sitting in office late in the night after a long long time... I am working on something that I have no clue about and single mindedly trying to finish that off... the only thoughts that cross my mind is about Saturday... the joy of being around children, realising how bad your grammer has become, and the greatest thing is simpyfying... my job looked so differnt from the point of view of doe eyed children... just loved it...
Hope I get another chance to experience the same joy and peace as that day!

I miss you!!!

I am sad today... why???

I missed the most important call... - and the worse part I can't call back...

I miss you my love... I miss telling you how my days was... I miss the smile every time I heard a word from your mouth...

I know u'll be back soon and we will live our individual life as we always do... but right now I miss you...

I sit in the rickshaw in the as I do everyday... and I miss you so bad that I read the card you gave me this Easter and cherish each written word...

I miss you sweetheart and waiting to hear your voice....

The loving ways

I have been in a crappy mood these past few days - things hazy and unclear - every little thing was irritating... people don't feel that I snap... but person's had to instruct me to watch what I say before I pick up the phone...

But I didn't know how to stop it... I didn't know what it was all about... I used foul language (in my head) every time something irritated me...

But one evening, one evening of complete vent changed everything, even if its for sometime...

The listening ears, the accepting eyes and the following nods; made me feel good and most importantly made me laugh...

I want to thank that special person for being stupidly himself and for being with me... I will have him in my back pocket where ever I go...

Thank god for that very very lovely person...

There is one thing I would like to say to that very person - I Love you.

Music

I didn't realise when music changed from something I experienced within myself to something that people made and allowed me to experience with them....

Realization has set in that music can be experienced best when being made in front on oneself...

When I see people around me who don't understand music or don't feels its power, I feel they are missing something...

Well I missed this something for 22 yrs of my life... so glad I can now experience it as I do...

My travels 1 - Delhi

It just struck me on the way back home, that my work takes me around the country and I always learn and experience something new, I feel that it is important to put down these experiences, it makes it a richer experience.

So my first post in the whole upcoming series is DELHI.

My impression prior to visiting the city - a city full of greenery and history - I am not saying it is not! but its lot more... :)

Very sadly I did not get a chance to see the historic part of Delhi... work kept me busy in other places.

I had the chance to see the Delhi Haat area - lovely is the only way I can describe it... I wish we could have something like that in Mumbai also... it would make things so much easier...

The most surprising thing was when we were getting back from Delhi Haat to Kalkaji where we were put up - a guy stops his car on a busy road, gets off, goes and greets the man and his wife sitting in the driving the car behind him and then coolly returns back to his car and drives off... the only thing that crossed my mind was - if this happened in Mumbai there would be a riot!

It was funny and irritating at the same time, made me realize how important it is to know and maintain contacts in Delhi.

Must say the road that lead to the airport passes some of the embassies in Delhi and they were absolutely beautiful.

The only thing I want to understand at the end of the trip was - the reason why in most Delhi households, only the male folk in house ate non-veg while the female folk didn't? - correct me if I am wrong - but it was just an observation...

The firsts!

The firsts are always special - here are my few recent firsts

First love

First Job

First trip on the plane

First Pay

The first piece of cloth I brought for ma with my money

First out fit I purchased without guilt

First trip on my own expenses

I had a lot of Firsts in the past 2 years.... Love it... and hoping for many more!!!!

Snapshots...

My wish list...

Simply put - the things I want to do....

1. Speak without inhibition...

2. Photograph nature and everything else beautiful around me (including the people that I love)

3. Go around the country and eventually the world!

4. Sleep!!!

5. Smile without have a glimmer of sadness in my heart.