Life I agree has to end one day .But I believe we have a say in how we live our lives and how it will end, at least to an extent. I also believe in a higher power who knows when I will breathe my last.
During exams I always read about people who end their lives to get rid of some temporary problem. These people according to me don’t have the courage to face their problems and never saw their side of the story. Well I didn’t even care.
But something clicked… I realized that it’s not only the fault of the person who did it, but the fault also falls on lack of communication and understanding.
This change in my perception came about a few days ago to be exact on the 21st of April when I was reading the newspaper I came across in the times about a girl of only 21 who decided to take her own life…. I was just about to dismiss it …. But as I read further I found that the name of the girl was familiar, that’s when I realized she was my friend
She was someone who I looked up to and was close to, but due to some misunderstanding and the fact that I did not attend the same college in the last year, we lost touch. I saw her once last year at McDonalds but she ignored me, which made me feel bad. But I just dismissed it not thinking much about it. But reading about her made me cry…. I couldn’t believe a person like her could and would do such a thing.
I remember praying once when I had just begun going to college,” lord” , I prayed silently, “ help me to empathic to people, let me experience things for myself, so when others go through it I will have a idea of the pain they are going through”. I think this is the way my attitude toward people who suicide changed. Today I feel that its not only the child mistake or the a women’s mistake or for that matter the fault of the man but people who drive them toward it, people who ignore the signs, people who choose not to notice, people who dismiss them as people who cannot be helped are also to blame.
The only thing I can do today to help my friend today is to pray for her, and I do it. I don’t have the courage to meet her parents but I can surely visit her grave.
Everyone who reads this, I would like to request each one of you to please make a small pray today for all those who have ended their life, which ultimately belongs to god prematurely. Thank you.
